Well I think my blog title is soon to be changed from decided art to nowhere everything. Its almost past half year I have not sketched. Best or worst, you may say anything but humans have to spend time earning for his dreams. Job and my broken tablet pen are the reason for no updates. But still I had some time to think about what I felt and observed last few months.
I have few close friends and even few people that notice me. Earlier I thought that there was something wrong with me. Then I felt that it was me that didn’t communicate enough. I realized that I don’t speak much about myself or share talks. When I don’t speak about myself, people will not talk to me about themselves. Neither have I ever asked about them. So I think these were the reason that didn’t give a better start to friendship. Later I came to know that people perceive me to be someone who has got an attitude, doesn’t care or doesn’t listen to anyone. Anyhow I have few friends who know that I can be an interesting one.
I realized that though I am actively inactive in relations, people have tagged me some who really like to stay away or ‘psycho’. I really get with people after some long time and then I find it very difficult to change gears and speak about everyday life. But this is something I have attempted to change this year and hope I do get better as the years pass.
We human being has the power to choose relative but the power to choose friends lies with us. We have to take time to make the right kind of friendship because friendship was our choice.
Despite this, at-times my choice of friendships has been determined not by choice but by circumstance. Though I have few friends, I have one who scolded when I was crazy, laughed when I have silly breakups and instructed me when I was wrong. I had few friends during best time ‘College days’, spent lot of time together but slowly the pain had to grow bitter and it had to be let away.
With time you begin to understand people. With routine progress in your conversation, you begin to understand them and their flaws. Now there’s a 2 way here, you either get adapted to them or your flaws crashes. Even then there is way to either forgive or remember it to let it go. Forgiving them and yourself in choosing that friendship is the hardest thing of all. You eventually get into state of depression with whom you had been so close, invested you time and feelings. After all everyone has to learn and live with it.
I learnt that all friendship doesn’t sail for long, some either drown to bottom, some either get stuck in storm and some make your voyage of your life fabulous. Life is to be travelled and meet travelers to show you your destiny.
